Here We Go Again

I go through phases of being inspired to blog, obviously. I always want to, I just get all caught up in how to. I think I may have figured this whole layout thing now. I feel good about it. At least I know that as long as the words and the memories are there, I can fix the way it looks in the future.

Emme is so precious. She is learning how to read. She is SO hard on herself. The process of learning for her looks like it physically hurts at times. She tries so hard and when she doesn't get something right, the tears come, the frustration, then the words. She gets so mad at herself and starts to say things like, "I'll never get it." or "I can't do it!" I find it very sad and frustrating too. Tonight though, for the first time, she got all of her sight words right. She was stuck on "OF" for some reason. I mean really stuck. Tonight, she got it. She was so proud of herself that she burst into tears, threw her arms around my neck and said, "Oh Mommy, I am SO proud of ME! Are you proud of me too?"

Obviously, I was. Beyond words. She got OF and it was like the 4th of July over here.

So tonight was bittersweet. These last few weeks have been bittersweet. Libbie's days with us are numbered before she moves. Belinda and I are doing everything we can to allow the girls to spend time together. I took them to dinner tonight. We had a good time, even though Emme hated her food and refused to eat. She was just tired.

Best Friends Forever

Libbie took this picture of me and Emme

And Emme took this picture of me and Libbie

I know we are going to be missing them very soon. I am just hoping they really come back to us and that the year passes quickly. Emme is going to hurt and I can't fix that. I can't make it all better. That is going to hurt in ways I have yet to experience as a mother. I can only hope I have prepared her to have the strength to understand and adjust.